Canola field - Calgary

I took a day off today, to spend some time with my sister before she leaves. I drove to Canola field to snap some pictures with her. I also hired 2 boys, my son and his buddy to pose for my camera..
Here's some pictures that will bring us many returns in future..

永远懷念爸爸。我爸爸life係 Well Lived.

明天是老斗過身第二個星期，我们也开始resume regular routine..不過心中很想念老斗。
有時想起老斗臨去那一刻，我们握住怹的手說再見，心仍然好心痛，好唔捨得。
我明白生老病死乃是必经之路，但当真正發生自已身上時，是十分难去面对或去接受。
多谢家姐、老公、仔仔互相关懷，慢慢放下放心，因為老斗life係 Well Lived，而佢老人家十分好又善心，一定带走好多公德到另一个極樂世界了，我應该替老斗开心！
老斗，我们永远懷念您！

In memory of my father, may you be with mother in western paradise..
We missed you! 

Are we ever prepare enough?

Finally today I can have a quiet time for myself to rest and relief, my eyes is quite weak due to too many days of crying and stress. father is finally in peace, I am trying to rest so I can resume my usual activity.

The passed week was overwhelm for me and family, so thankful to Brother Max and Sister Ping coming from out of country and state to join us here to help, to mourn to walk together to say goodbye to father.
And I know Brother Leong who is still in Malaysian anxious to take part, he is mourning yet he is preparing for father last wishes, awaiting father urns to returns home, so that father can be re-united with mother in KL.

Do you know how much you know or how much you prepare for your final destiny?

There's never enough preparation, especially emotionally.
Everyone telling us how our father lived well, lived long, and he is in good place now.
We thought we are prepared as well, knowing he will be gone one day due to old age...
But it's never easy to say goodbye.

During this difficult time, you will need support, helping hand and some ceremony help to mourn. We had a simple Memorial service to to say goodbye, or to have it  to celebrate his life well lived.

I have all that, Thanks to my dear friend Jessie who help so much during the funeral service, thanks for her and her husband big heart for not being superstitious and go extra mile to help us running a smooth memorial services process. Thanks to Mimi who looking after my boy so we can have flexible hours to take care my father funeral services.

Thanks to My dear husband with me all this time, especially during the moment we held on to father hand to say goodbye.. it was hard, it was sad,, and my husband were there to support, to care..

A big thanks to my sister's E who looking after father everyday so that family member who have their own family can have excuses for not being there for father daily...

Of course there are many many of relative and friend offer their comfort to us in many different way...
There isn't enough Thank you for me and family to express...

I missed my father dearly, and hope he soon be reunited with mother....

老斗在Calgary 的身後事已辦妥

老斗在Calgary 的身後事已辦妥。大姐同二家姐会将老斗的 Urns 带回大馬交回大哥哥守孝，同時也会有為老斗舉行追思會，讓大馬子

孫、親屬和朋友也一起道念爸爸。
多謝大哥哥完成老斗心願，為老斗作好準備，等老斗回到老家和媽媽
天國團聚。
大哥，辛苦你了！

Our father is rest in peace and awaiting to go home to KL, Malaysia to be reunited with our mother, Our Brother Leong is awaiting and preparing father Urns to returns. Brother, thanks for everything..
And to whom who came to the funeral service with your generous donation, to whom who post your sympathy, and phone texting during our time of loss. Your presence and your kind words are of great comfort to us. Thank you. 

p/s: Collected memorial donation will be donated to Wing Kei Senior Home and CCES Calgary.. Thank you for your generosity.

Above images from: http://www.buzzle.com/articles/sympathy-thank-you-cards.html

 

萬般不捨。

萬般不捨爸爸的離世，
我們相信怹己走向光明的極樂世界，
安息吧。
爸爸，多謝您！
我們永遠懷念您！

(多謝三姐Taiwan朋友 "立麒" 送上畫中那段致詞。
立麒,謝謝妳!).

 我好掛住您！

親愛爸爸，我們永遠懷念您！In memory of our beloved father.

"Hurry Up - Catch Up " - IF entry

This week IF entry_ Hurry 

I love pattern fills, just love to fill  in different patterns.

Me and my boy are quite lazy exercising, my hubby always tell us "Hurry Up - Catch Up " lets get out and do some exercise...  coz he walks at least few hours a day on his job..

:)

horse

weekend leisure illo..

Faded_IF_entry

This week IF entry topic - Faded.......... Do you know what is it like when your memories is slowly fading away?

My father is a Dementia patient, he is slowly losing memory, he cannot remembered much.
Most of the precious memory is slowly fading away..
Fortunetly he is a happy goes lucky person, he didn't make it looks so fear and unbearable, we treasure his presents and make the best of it..
Thanks father, you will be ok..

Relax at home..

Took a day off, thinking to do thing I wanna do without the boy, visit father or go visit hubby at work..
but poor little boy is sick, strep throat... so, stay home, eat, cook, relax, draw.. Sheep Baa Baa.. my favorites...

another year gone by

 hmm.. same concept...

Count..

九五个理由愛媽媽 -Mother's day gift-2012

好一陣子沒動电子笔畫畫，今天昰母親節，送给妳。

 今天是Mother's Day，我為大小少爺還準備"猪仔包"，母親是一 份天職。我挺Enjoy..

 所以今天收到囝囝用了整个小時躲在書房裡，做了一份老師教他同班同学為媽媽送上一份心意禮物。

九五个理由愛媽媽。

Baking - Tea Biscuit. and sweet corn

 Bought some ready make Tea Biscuit ingredient in Winners a while back, I bake it at home couple weeks ago, it's so easy, just add milk, I added some peaches, then pour the battle into mini cup cake size and bake.....
not too bad, but I think there's lot of room for taste improvement.. for myself.

tea break time..

Sweet Corn season is approaching, yum... lots of fiber and best of all - so tender and tasty..

Super Moon Snap shoot

Super moon - May 5th - 2012 - looking at my bedroom window..

my color mood is PINK

Pink is for Happy, loves and joy.. I would marry my husband again if there's next life, coz he is the world greatest man.. thanks for being patient, great tolerance, loving and giving...

Black n White Photoshop

Black n White Photoshop..
無聊星期天，躲在家中工作室 。。。。

Quite Sunday, 仔仔跟大姐二姐去Rock Show exhibition 看Mineral n Rocks，大姐說仔仔很乖，見到他看上喜欢的Rock，所以大姐她给了仔仔三十現金去買，只跟仔仔說這是送他的生日利錢，仔仔反问大姐："姨媽，妳帶了多少钱来加拿大呀？
大姐回答： 不是很多，不过這是早準備送你的和加這一張卡。
仔仔：那，不用這麼多了，妳收回吧，我只收下五塊钱好了，媽媽說會给我錢買一些ROCK的。

blues，心情不好

莫名其妙的我，什麼也不想，什麼也聽不進！也不看，只是blind out n 死牛一边！
心情不好！不想擁有太多情緒，要安靜一下。
昨日下了一場大片大片的雪，好漂亮。而今天一早太陽出來，天氣莫名其妙，但好陽光觸動不到人心，心情一樣不好，只因驕傲脾性！

Mumbling - life is a bitch..

Already close to month end- April..
I have been quite busy, my oldest sister is here to take care father who has Cadillac surgery on both eyes.
He recovered quite nicely because my Superb Sister is taking good care of him. She actually volunteer staying in the Senior home with my father to look after him carefully, making sure he is speedy recovery before she flys home to KL.

My father is so blessed to have a caring and loving daughter like her, my sister have being so great, she always here for the family, she is not just taking care father, but she is also doing it for us, so we can take a break from looking after father, she is here to relieved us, she always being a thoughtful person. Big Thanks to her and I believe my sister being living so great because this is her Karma.

I too thank you this life, because it has being good and continue good.. I appreciate life and I value my family, my other half, my dearest son and health.. but I am facing a life change with my health..

Mind you I find myself is facing a big challenges in my health changed, perhaps I am going into the next phrase of my life - that is Old Age?

I  sported some Grey hairs, and my period is not as normal, metabolism is slower, then in some night I think I started to get hot flashes!!! The worst is my mood swing quite a bit, poor people who is around me, I fuss my boss who gave me so much RUSH work, I fuss my colleagues somewhat not meeting my expectation. I fuss my son who is so absent minded, I fuss my husband for almost everything (I just warned them tonight to stay away from me, I am mad with no reason, so they go hide), I fuss my other sister's Mia when she asks too many question, I even fuss on a client who is trying to design his company logo..because he is too picky, so I lose patient with him, he complained about me to Boss, but all my colleague understand my mood swing because no one can do my Design work ! My work is always back loaded, so they are petty me and putting up with me!  my brain juice is getting less and less day by day.. Soon I will join my father in the Dementia Home Care..

I know I am very bad,, but I think I blame my hormone,, not me! Is this starting of Menopause ? but I thought Menopause start around age 50!

I think I have to find way to accept next phase of my life,, manage my Menopause by changing my life style, my diet and exercise more......

Pray, Change, Live.

Big Day for Boy...

 A important Tenth Birthday for my boy. A big Ten..

Time flies, it's ten year already..
I always remind my boy about birthday is not a day to receive wishes and gift for himself, it's a day he should appreciate Life and be thankful to his parent, especially I am the mom who give birth and I went through 7 hours of Labor pain.. : ) Yar?

 This morning he sent me an email and said He loves me and Daddy...

Daddy left a note on the table this morning to wish him..

我的軟糖藝術品 My Cake Art Gallery..and more

My latest hot Hobby - Using Fondant As clay... 

做糖果的奶油質面團 - 我的軟糖藝術品

I wonder how long it will last me.... But I do wish I have a chance to work in Cake shop just to Decorate cakes, coz I can't bake, I can learn, but my interest is in Decorating the cake..

My Cake Art Gallery..This is all my Edible Art. I started using Fondant as a clay to make some cute figurines..这是我最近着迷的手藝

All my stand by Fondant Figurines...小小动物手藝

Bears, when I started using Fondant as Clay, I tried to make some bear, about 3 inches long. it was hard to mold... I did 3 and decide to do something simple to create. BearBear熊很难做呀，只做三个沒再做了。

This is another Cake Art - Fondant. I create this for my buddy birthday, the cake size is about 5 inches, the figurine is about 1 inch or less.

This is one of the Cake Art I did, do you know the size is quite small as show on my picture.

these are my cookies cutters, some bought new that is on Sales, some second hand. see,  I don't spend a fortune on hobby... I know I spend quite a bit..

Another  Hobby - Cup n Mug collection..

This is part of my Cup n Mug Collection, Some were a gift from friends, some new but most of mug n cup were found in second hand store.. can't spend a fortune in my hobby, Hubby get heartache when he sees me bring home mugs.. then he asks me to clean up the Cabinet .. but the cup cost me less than 50cents or no more than 2 bucks each..I can't resist good n pretty cup or mug, dear.

 Sunday  Break 周未清鬆

Most of the Weekend, I rather stay home, especially my boy loves staying home and looking forward to play his computer or video games. He only allowed to play during weekend, 3 times a day, an hour each time.
More on Winter days,  just love to staying home in my cozy pajamas, and enjoy my free day with food and sweet.

But when I am home free and Relax, I feel guilty not being able share with my father, I can bring him home thought.. but he sleeps all the time, and not so mobile..honestly, I admit I am lazy too, lazy to go out in the cold.... Guilty I am..

爸Sorry..每个星期只看你一次，一到周未懒的出門，尢其冬天，雖然您每分钟都睡，行动不好也不成理由不探您，这星期帶您回家共亨清鬆 (不過您一向都清鬆 喔，那就享受不同好清鬆 吧！)

This is Filipino Sweet Bun , go so well with Afternoon Tea.

Coffee Break

Love Weekend, cos this is my treats.. Cheese cake n my Blue mountain Coffee.

This is a cake I did for Isabella 1st Birthday, I snap some picture before I send her this, but cannot find the image, may have being deleted.. Sigh!

Daily EQ challenges..每天都有不同人生測驗題

原來有時自已的行為是衝動吧，不但沒帮上忙，而增加面对的人更頭头！話太直心的勇字是对一些強制他人認同自己对的人沒作用！我愛家人，有些家人身邊的伴侶很难去相处，因为連她自己的家人也頂她不顺，何仿是我！不想讓家人难做！唯有放棄，只盼一切會好。.
每天都有不同人生測驗題，考考EQ，Sigh! 唯有努力学习吧！